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Sat, 26 Dec 2009 12:33:17 GMT

Baby Jesus.. You are the weakest link.

I have the most retarded dreams.. Just putting that out there... We had an amazing Christmas.. I got Mark some stuff that he really liked and I built a photo wall thing for him.. He thought it looked neat.. He just got up for work and left :[ ... I hate that he works on Saturdays but whatev.. It pays the billz.. And I am totally turning back over and going back to sleep.. It's 28 degrees outside.. I don't envy anyone that has to be in it at all for any reason... My tummy hurts.. Those little girls need to sleep in..

I made shot glasses from mini liquor bottles last night.. These excited me.. ^_^

And there is Mark's photo wall with the 'buildings' which I am going to work more on this week... Making it look more... I dunno.. Fun? Haha

My eyes are like 'fuck this' and watery so I am putting my phone down (lj app=awesome) <3

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Merry christmas you fucks.

Fri, 25 Dec 2009 00:11:00 GMT

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 05:41:44 GMT

I wish I had time to post anything with substance... I've got some pics to post.. Probably gonna do that tomorrow... Anddddddddddd... I wish I had taken pics of the wonderful jewelry I made for Mark's mom and sister and Julie and Pacita.... I've been a crafting whore this week and I just spent a lot more money on picture frames for more shit and..... random other stuffs... I need to mail this shit tomorrow.. I'm debating keeping Mark's parent's stuff until the 27th when we meet with them half way to Mobile, probably in Montgomery or Prattville or some shit like that....

I am currently suspended from work bc I have a cunt of a supervisor who thinks that she can fire anyone... I'm Supposed to know Monday whether or not I can come back... Everyone seems to think that I will be.. But who knows O_o I honestly hope I can go back bc we have billz to pay..

hang out time with Mechler is awesome, she never fails to crack me the fuck up.. I had to go to West to pick up my check today and JB brought it to me, it was really funny.. he hugged me and told me he missed me.. it was sweet.

I've been making so much shit I've lost track of what all I've got left with supplies.. But to hell with it... At least MOST of my christmas shit is done.. I gotta make jewelry for my family now.. then I'll be done.. Gahhhh... I REALLY wish I had taken pics of all the pics that I made.. I cut up a bunch of cardboard stuffs and let Sophie color on them and put pics of her and Delia on them and those are for the Mobile family.. and I am pretty excited abt them opening them... Hmmmm... I don't know what to do... >_<

I guess it's shower time then bed.. I really need to semi clean some of this stuff up before going to bed though.. I've got craft shit everywhere.. It's like Martha Stewart broke in and puked supplies in my house.. Except if she did that I'd be really happy... haha.. we'll call this bed time and I'll post some pics tomorrow.. gn <3

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 22:58:49 GMT

I never thought that things could be this good... Mark makes me happy.. Like I never thought was possible.. He makes me feel all crazy good and amazing and like I'm always on top of the world.. I thought that actually giving a fuck abt someone, for me, was impossible.. With the shit that's happened in the past few years, to actually feel something for someone is crazy.. It feels unreal, but in the best way.. Not like I never wanted it to happen, I just wasn't really sure that I did.. I knew that I didn't want it in vain, and I didn't want it with someone who would just be a dick to me.. I know some girls thrive on that, but I don't, I can't.. I'm not a nice girl, and I'm not sweet. I have been incredibly cruel and unkind in the past, to people in general, and guys I've dated.. And I've cared less what they thought, or felt, or what anyone else thought abt it...

I know most people don't really know our back story, but Mark and I remember it all, and that's really what matters... He knows my heart is for him, and will be always.. <3

Tomorrow is our 9 month anniversary, and as small as that sounds to some people, that's HUGE for me.. Not only do I not let people in easily, while I may say whatever I am feeling, or whatever is on my mind, my true feelings are rarely shown to anyone.. Not that I don't WANT to, but really, I don't want to.. I just don't like getting close to people.. The only people I've truly let in in the past few years, have been Mechler, Cindell, and Mark... I've pushed people away intentionally, been rude when I felt they were getting too close, and just ignored people.. And for once in my life, I feel like I have everything.. Even if some days are harder than others, I know that things are going to work out and be great..

Our kids get along, and Sophie has started calling me 'Mommy'.. Which when Mark and I first started dating I said that I wasn't cool with, but with the complete lack of her actual mother being in her life- which really isn't the worst thing ever, and me being in that place, I've finally gotten to be cool with it.. She's such a freakin sweet heart, and is soooooo hilarious (She asked Santa yesterday if he liked her high tops! lol!)..

Basically, things are going great... Mark and I are getting on great, hanging out and being exhausted together.. Hanging out with the kids, and working.. I feel like I don't see him enough some days, and other days I just don't even want to get out of bed with him (not in the sexual way, just in the cuddle and sleep way) bc I'd rather just not even get up and pretend to care abt a job that I don't even like..

As far as work goes, I still have my days where I hate it beyond belief, and other days where I get cracked up by my co-workers.. Which in some cases, bc I can't help but be mean as fuck to some of them bc I hate them... Srsly.. A few of them, I'd be okay if they fell into a well... A really really deep one that was filled with enough water so that I could sit and watch them fight to see who would prevail in a fight to the death..

I'm really just rambling at this point.. I need to go flat iron my hair since I colored it earlier.. I also need to do dishes and take the trash out, and cook.. Mark loves my cooking, which makes me happy.. I'd be miz if he was like 'yuck, this is awful' which he has only said one thing I've made was bad, and that was my pumpkin cheesecake, which he doesn't like pumpkin, so I wasn't offended.. haha

I guess I'm going to grab a quick shower, blow dry my hair and flat iron it, and start cleaning and cooking..... O_o

<3

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 01:37:58 GMT

Things could not be better.. Mark is definitely my other half.. <3

Things at work are here and there, sometimes they're better, sometimes they're positively miz.. But whatevz.. I got my smiley pierced, it felt really weird at first but now it's just cute and fun... There are constantly updated pics of life on facebook, facebook.com/ohmessylj if ya wanna add me :)

I am so excited about tomorrow, we finally have an off day together with no kids! ^_^ I love our girls, but we rarely get alone time, and it'll be nice... I love that man a ridiculous amount, he makes me giddy.. n_n

Not really too much to update, things are going well, just always busy being a mommy and a housewife, on top of working 40 hours a week, and being stressed at times abt work, and trying to find some time to be creative in it all, and make some art... Which is rare lately... Mark asked if I was going to start making stuff again, and while I REALLY want to, I am just so tired all the time.. It sucks bc I really wanna play with stuff, and make stuff.. I also want some canvas to paint on, and I'd like to buy new paint, through the 10 moves in the past several years, I have lost so much stuff... My paints seem to be one of those things.. Weak.. Although, last weekend I did crochet a turtle neck scarf.. It's purple and black and very cute! I need to pick up some buttons for it while we're in hsv tomorrow.. The Apple store is near Michael's, so it'll work out.. ^_^ I am totally cooking jambalaya tonight, if Mark ever comes home, he was in Birmingham Monday and most of Tuesday and we snuggled hard last night to make up for the night we missed together.. I have never ever been so happy with anyone, nor have I ever felt so much love.. He is so crazy awesome and fun.. He makes me giggle, and makes my eyes all dreamy.. Haha...

Julie is coming to get Sophie on Tuesday of next week to take her back to Mobile, and we'll be getting her back Sunday, I'm really excited abt having 3 kid free nights, it'll be the longest kid free time we've had since they moved up. I know Sophie will really love being able to hang out with everyone in Mobile, I know she misses them, and they miss her.. Her behaviour in school has improved so so so so much! She is such a freakin' sweetie and can be so hilarious and lovable, but sometimes she has an attitude.. She's changed a lot in the past few weeks though, and definitely for the better.. ^_^

I need to cook, so I'm going to end this... Mark still isn't home but I know Sophie and I are hungry :[ so, time to cook it is... Maybe he will get home before it's done.. I can't believe it's already 7:30, today dragged by until I got off work, and now it's like speeding by... Fail.

But- I'll throw a couple pics in here for those of you that aren't on FB... <3

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 18:05:17 GMT

Mark started a new job, I got a new piercing, I'm ready for a vacation with just Mark and I.. Things are good.. I want some green skinny jeans.. But I've got to start working out again.. I feel too fat for life.. I don't know how Mark even thinks that I'm cute, bc I totally don't feel it.. It's Sunday, and I'm already for this week to be nearly over... Mark and I are both off on Thursday, which is awesome bc it'll be the first day we have had off together- no kids- since we both took off early for his birthday.. In which case, we still got Sophie, but had a baby sitter that night..

I'm waiting for laundry to finish drying, and more to finish washing.. needing to take Sophie's summer clothes from her dresser and put winter clothes in it so she'll stop fussing abt not wanting to wear a skirt, and have plenty of pants.. :P

I need my hair trimmed, Mark is loving his new job.. Once it picks up, and he starts making hours there, I'm sure he'll love it even more.. He has to go to birmingham tomorrow and stay the night in a hotel with this guy he works with, Monday night, and spend Monday and Tuesday in class for Firestone... Very very unhappy abt that..

I do not have the motivation nor the attention span right now to finish this... I will post something with substance later.. I know I keep saying that, but it will happen one day.... O_o

where we're going... we don't need roads..

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 12:20:30 GMT

1. my checking acct has LITERALLY $.01... How it came out to just ONE PENNY I am amazed.... And 2. Mark and I have both gained 25lbs since he moved here... How crazy, that tells me that I definitely need to lose my weight back.. I just haven't been running b/c everytime I want to, it's raining, I'm so exhausted that I don't even want to get up, I'm at work, or I'm just generally not able due to whatever is going on.. I feel so fat.. He looks great, b/c he's not as skinny as he was, and he looks really nice.. ^_^

I am so incredibly sleepy.. Like I feel like I shouldn't be this sleepy.. v_v We did go to bed kinda late last night though, and we drank beers last night.. So, I'd guess that PROBABLY has Something to do with it..

Ugh.. My tummy hurts.. I just want to feel like I got enough sleep, and not feel so drained and shitty.. D:

I really don't have much to say atm.. I really do intend to do a full post, just not feeling it right now..

>_>

<_< O_o

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 13:29:38 GMT

Since being with Mark, I've been more creative and more inspired... He really makes me happy and motivates me to do more. I could not be happier, ever.. We have a really cute place, and things are going awesome.. I have absolutely no complaints abt anything..

This is my idea for how I'm going to paint my tv stand after sanding it.. the pics are a little out of order b/c I was sketching it out at work and wasn't thinking abt putting it in an exact order.. O_o Now it kinda looks funny on the paper, but it's still a concept for the tv stand, overall.. I don't think that it will be that hard, I've got a million crazy ideas for doing fun things in our home, that I'm really excited about.. I can't wait to be able to carry them out, they're all fairly inexpensive ideas.. I hope they work out right.. haha

Since sweater weather is now here, officially, I am going to start running when I get off work, in between the two hours that I am home, before Mark and Sophie get home. I feel so fat and gross, I have gained 13lbs back of the 30lbs that I lost since they moved up here, and it's because my hours are crazy and I haven't had a schedule set. I think the fact that my schedule changed to 7a-3:30p at work will help this whole thing out a lot.. I think that if I can make the effort to start exercising in the afternoons and going back to drinking almost only water, and stop drinking energy drinks occasionally, that I will lose my re-gained weight.. I also think that if we all, as a family, start eating better that will be easier.. Mark has gained a little weight since they moved also, he looks fantastic either way though ;).. I could only really tell how much weight I've gained when I put my skinnies on and I was muffin topping again, how depressing.. haha..

I've been having the weirdest dreams, and the weirdest inspirations lately.. I have a weird obsession for keys used in jewelry, and also for octopus related things, but I have had the octopus love for like 2 years now.. I don't know what it is abt them, but they're just neat.. I also have this strange thing for bears. They're just so cuddly looking while being vicious killing machines.. I have been listening to a lot of random music lately, but haven't updated my last.fm (or listened to it) in a while.. I need to get on that.. I need suggestions for new music! Due to demonoid being down for like the past two weeks I haven't downloaded shit, and that makes me sad.. :(

I am at work though, and searching for crafting ideas.. Thinking abt working longer hours for the rest of the week, so that I can buy things to craft.. I have so many ideas.. I am so ready to get started on going crazy with crafts, and I wish I could just sit at home and craft all the time, or just have more days off, haha.. I want to start buying paint, and b/c I want to learn french I'm going to label everything in the house in french so we can all learn what I'm trying to say, when I say these things.. We will see how this works out.. I really want to learn french, haha..

I think I'm gonna end this novel though, it's just been so long since I posted anything with any substance in here.. Haha.. There are a ton of pics from Sophie's 3rd birthday that I'll post on here that are on facebook already.. I just have to remember my photobucket password.. It's saved on the photobucket app on my phone so the only way for me to upload pics right now on my photobucket is on my phone.. haha, I feel retarded for that..

I hope all you guys an gals are doing awesome.. <3

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 02:21:16 GMT

Did anyone else's journal entries on their friends page go from the 13th to the 18th?? wtf.

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 21:49:06 GMT

Happy birthday to Mark... I think he had a pretty wild night last night :D

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 02:25:28 GMT

We Finally got internet at home yesterday... (fuck yes)... Things are awesome with us, aside from both of us hating our jobs.. D:<

Hopefully things will look up..?

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 03:39:19 GMT

(original)

'cartoony'

you can still sorta see my face here..

that's all... I just actually liked that pic... lol

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 01:59:34 GMT

I've been feeling more creative lately...

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 04:43:25 GMT

I've been feeling crafty lately... and earrings are so fucking expensive for me at this point.....

I'm going to start selling these on etsy.. Know anyone interested? I can do customs :D

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 02:02:27 GMT

totally pissed.. I think it's bullshit that the only cable provider in my area is Charter.. and they're expensive and a buncha bullshit... D:

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 20:14:20 GMT

Things have been great... I couldn't be happier... There really aren't a lot of pics to take, haha but I'll show off our downstairs... :)

living room

we had to get a pantry thingie, there isn't a lot of cabinet space! :O

shot of the fridge, haha (pre-cleaning)

(post cleaning)

The bar where we hang out, and compute.. haha P:

Things have been pretty awesome.. We had to buy a washer, and a pantry type thing, to keep food in, which is actually pretty efficient in what it does, we didn't put the handles on, so the girls can't open it and pull foods out.. He got the job in Athens, which is alright, he is on his way back from his interview.. He starts Monday.. We are trying to get Sophie in a daycare before then.. Which is going to be a feat.. I took today off, so he could go to his interview and drive my car, since his doesn't have a/c.. Sophie is napping, and I am just sitting here, hanging out... watching iCarly... haha P: .... Waiting for Mark to get back, thinking about wearing my new dress, that my mom got me as an early bday gift, tomorrow.. It's really pretty and paisley blue-turquoise-ish and orange and green.. It's really pretty.. I'm excited to wear it.. :D

I really have enjoyed having a day off and spending it with Sophie, she's hilarious... We have a ton of stuff to do, and I need to go to my aunts house and get my clothes and stuff, and pack it all up, and bring it home... Once I get my stuff moved from there, we will officially be finished moving stuff.. n_n

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 15:56:19 GMT

Oh man I just woke up from the weirdest dreams... I had dreams that I got a phone that was shaped like an egg, and flipped out like the G1, and it was TERRIBLE... It had a screen more like one of the old tomigatchi egg thingies.. haha.. It was all black and grey and with the 'generic' looking green grey screen... So weird!

My dream had so much more in it, but I really don't remember all of it... D:

Also, we are mostly in the townhouse, we just have some of my shit to go... Then we'll be settled in, all of his things are here.. We bought a washer and a pantry thingie b/c we have a lack of cabinet space.. Things look pretty good... I'm happy... :D

Mark is 21337

(he typed that while I was afk)

Fri, 31 Jul 2009 08:48:13 GMT

omfg.. like 12 hours and I'll have my love and Sophie here! Marks parents are also coming to help with the move.. I couldn't be more excited...

This man... omg.. I am so in love it's scary... There aren't words to describe how amazing the feelings I get when he's on my mind are... It's beautiful....

here.... /gag

That's for all you guys reading this, b/c I know I'm bein' super fag and you're probably all like 'omg gay' hahahahah :P

<3

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 06:49:40 GMT

I made a wickedly awesome sounding resume tonight.... I hope it lands me a new job.. :D

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 06:49:03 GMT

we got the townhouse, we should be moved in Around/By august 1st... :D

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 04:40:03 GMT

I have a haircut appointment at 10:30am.. I'm getting bangs, against my better judgement... Haha.. Nah, I love bangs for a while, then when they get super shaggy I hate them... If I keep them groomed I should be fine.. O_o I am also having it thinned out a good bit.. I have a style in mind.. But pics will be posted tomorrow.. I may or may not get some fun colors in it too.... I'm thinking purple and blue... I am not 100% sure just yet... :P

We shall see.. :D

I am hopelessly in love.. It's a beautiful thing..

from last night....

Tue, 07 Jul 2009 07:47:21 GMT

I decided to fix my hair at 2am... It's the general time I do anything.. So, I parted it a different way and took pics to see if I really liked it or not? I wasn't sure, but still was like fuck it.. I went to work today and was complimented tons, on my hair cut.. hahah I heard it looked longer, and that I looked more girly, and one boy actually looked at me and told me that I am "actually really cute today".. which made me giggle.. O_o

and yeah, that's me in the bathroom, trying to take a decent shot.. hahaha

I think it was the earrings that made people feel like I 'looked more girly'.. I have no clue really.. >_>

I parted my hair to the other side...

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 07:53:36 GMT

I hope it makes it look like my little dead broken hairs aren't repopulating.. O_o I hate to but I do have to change it up at times.. I can't always wear a pompadour.. D:

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 06:51:39 GMT

my hair is a goddamned wreck. I just finished up some spicy linguini alfredo and I'm nursing this new castle b/c I don't want to walk back downstairs for more.. I have a big ass laundry pile on my bed, which I'm thinking about sleeping with b/c I don't want to fold it.. Our new dresscode at work kicks in tomorrow... I'm thinking about putting only pieces of clothing that should not go together, together... As a fuck you, I'll wear ugly shit and still be in dresscode type hello... I am debating straightening my hair, or not... I don't know. I wish my hair could always look as good as I can make it when I'm about to wash it.. I think that's the real magic, is to trick it to think I'm about to wash it... O_o

My bank sent me a new debit card, what in the hell for? I have no idea... They mentioned some business about my card may have been compromised and this and that.. Whatever.. I can now read the security code on the back of my card for the first time in months.. go me.

totally an iphone shot of the food I made last night... omg, so spicy and soooo good.. I made so much pasta, which is funny b/c I usually make more and there is usually not so much left..

while shopping for random things to cook, we came across this hot sauce.... I was pretty fucking grossed out by it, because it's separated.. this says "I've been sitting here for ages!" to me... thus, I would not purchase it.. however, I will take a pic of it.. O_o

I figured this would be easier for the last 2 pics which are pointless but cute..

he was trying to remember how to play Brick by Ben folds... he's so randomly talented.. I love him... n_n

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 00:47:38 GMT

We may have found a town house.... It's really nice.. I'm pretty excited... I hope things go well, because I'm ready to be together... :D